She walks by night

It started several nights ago, I usually go online starting from 10pm till 3 am and everytime im sitting there alone in the living room, I always feel like someone is behind me, staring at me in the darkness.

12 midnight kagabi, lights off, the only light emerging is from the pc's monitor

After a stiffnecking long talk with superman, I got busy surfing the internet when i felt like there was someone looking at my back again. As always, having a third eye or a sixth sense, (whatever you like to call it), previous experiences has told me to just ignore it because it will go away anyhow, to help me ignore the disturbance completely, I concentrated on my online routine.

But after some time, I heard small noises at my back, it scared me a lot so binuksan ko ang mga ilaw.........

Kahit sanay na ko sa ganitong mga pagpaparamdam, natakot pa rin ako.........

Nawala ang ingay...........

Pinatay ko ulit ang ilaw, Lalake pa rin ako, hindi ako natatakot, sa mga ganitong sitwasyon hindi ako bading, Hindi ko dapat ipakita na natatakot ako dahil lalo lang niya ko guguluhin, I believe that the more weakness they feel towards us, the more they are likely to strike. To help me overcome my scared paranoid mind. I need to keep myself occupied, balik sa internet, hindi ako natulog, matira matibay samin, alam ko mapapagod din siyang multo siya.

This time, I got busy cruising gay sites. Eventually, (adhd kc) I got tired looking at guys trying hard to look str8 that I suddenly had this lesbo attack to watch straight porno, so I checked out yajnat's recommended site, surprisingly I had a boner kahit minutes earlier I was scared like a pussy. The next thing I know, I was jacking off, I watched a lot of videos and to be really honest, I cummed 6 times that night. No joke!

It was already 3 am when I decided to stop, I grabbed my cellphone in the computer table, headed towards the staircase when suddenly I felt this coldness and eerie feeling at the back of my neck, I was standing in front of someone sitting in the stairs.

Her image slowly appeared like an apparition from the darkness.

She was wearing white and had this disheveled hair and she looks very familiar................

kamukha siya ni.............

NITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So si nita lang pala ang gumagawa ng ingay kanina pa, i thought there was a multo na, i asked her why is she awake na and how long na siya andun, she answered me na KANINA PA DAW, she cant look into my eyes, she was panting real hard and she hurriedly went to the maid's quarter. Ako naman naloka na sa kakaisip kung bakit di man lang siya na nagsalita na andun pala siya, sana man lang binuksan man lang niya ilaw para nalaman kong may tao di ba?, baka kung ano pa nakita niya na pinaggagawa ko sa internet.

TEKA! kung kanina pa siya nakaupo sa hagdan, eh malamang nakita niya, ang hindi niya dapat makita................. this is bad!

SHEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

Sa sobrang worry ko na kung may nakita nga siya or wala at baka isumbong niya ko, napaupo ako sa hagdan, same spot where she was sitting minutes earlier...........

at akalain niyong may nahawakan ako.......................

"BAKIT BASA!?"


HAY NAKU! WAG MO NG ALAMIN KUNG ANO UN DAHIL AS SOON AS I REALIZED WHAT IT IS, I WAS SHOWERING MYSELF WITH ALCOHOL! EWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!

DYUSKOPO! I FELT SO VIOLATED TALAGA! AS IN! GUSTO KO NA SIYA PALAYASIN AT IPATAPON SA MGA MILF, BAKLANG UN! BINOSOHAN NA KO, PINAGPANTASYAHAN PA KO! LECHE!

hindi tlaga ako makapaniwala, the next day while she was serving lunch, i told her this

"SA SUSUNOD NA MAKITA KITANG NAGLALAKAD NG DIS ORAS NG GABI DITO SA LABAS NG KWARTO NIYO, SINASABI KO SAYO NITA, MAGBALOT BALOT KA NA!"

Litrato

Dun sa litrato mukha kaming masaya
Mga ulo magkakalapit, animo'y maligaya
Nakaporma ang lahat, nakakurbata
Mabuti pa ang litratong ito, may halaga

Wala ng hahanapin pa, hindi ipagpapalit
Mga paghahanda namin ay mukhang sulit
Ako at ang aking kapatid animo'y inosenteng paslit
Pero bakit naninikip ang aking dibdib

Mga tawa at ngiti ipakita sa mapaglarong camera
Itago ang nararamdaman, itago ang itim na kapa
Magkunwaring masaya, isiping maligaya
Kunwari totoo, kunwari walang problema

Flash dito, Flash doon
Tingin dito, Tingin doon
Huwag mag-isip bahala na ang poon
Lagi naman ganito, Lagi naman ganoon

Kunwari gawing natural para sosyal
Kunwari walang nagaaway, kunyari nagmamahal
Kunwari walang narinig, kunyari hindi naging berbal
Kunwari maayos, kunwari may pagmamahal

Nakakapagod ngumiti, Nakakapagod umasa
Na maayos ang lahat para sa mata ng masa
Mukhang pamilya, animoy walang problema
Nagbabalat kayo, nagtatago sa ilalim ng kama

Gustuhin man mabago ang nararamdaman
Pero hindi maipagkakaila kailanman
Matagal na kinimkim na ako'y nasasaktan
Nakakulong si katotohanan, hindi malalaman

Nangangawit na ang aking bibig sa kakangiti
Hindi na mapakali ang aking dibdib
Pero kailangang gawin, kailangang paniwalain
Ang likod ng aming litrato na puno ng lihim


Turismoboi
Sept 3, 2008
2:19 AM

Coffee with Batman (reposted)

First, kamukha ko si Nicole Kidman dyan bwahahahaha! and ung panga ni Val Kilmer dyan hawig ni Batman

When: A week before my birthday
Where: Starbuck's
Why: SEB! lolz!

So there I was late again for about 30 mins to one hour ata, but he was patient naman, alam niyo naman me so primadonna, but i think he has an idea that im like that, i mean he reads my blog kaya, so filipino time sabi niya nga hehehehehe!

As soon as I saw him, he flashed his broadest smile at me, (reminds me of someone else), he is taller than me, was that 5'9 or 5'11? im not sure, was he tall, dark and handsome?... hmmmmmmmm I dont know, i dont wanna blow his ego nho hehehe! and im sure he's gonna read this post, he extended his arm and we shook hands, a very firm one, i think guys who can give strong shake hands are SEXY. (i wonder what his hands are capable of doing pa? bwahahha! hehehe!). When I was in highschool, I read that people who gives firm handshakes are more sincere than those who dont, so thats why i make it to a point that i also give a firm handshake to anyone but i think my hand was overwhelmed with his strength, i wasnt sure if i gave a firm one.

We lounged at Starbucks. Finally I get to use the gc I got lastDecember, he was wearing shades and i told him to take it off so that i can see his eyes, i mean if he can give a firm handshake and a nice smile then i want to see the whole package este his eyes too hehehehe!, As soon as he took off his sunglasses, I then realized that he looks like someone else, that thought kept rumbling in my mind for sometime until I realized that he looks like Makati Med nurse. As soon as i remembered i bluntly told him that he looks like Makati med nurse but Nursey looks better and he's darker. How bitchy i was di ba? so tactless! brutal nga ata talaga ko!

He shrugged it off but later told me on ym that he was indeed affected by my comment, Since he broke up with his ex bf, (who he pathetically stalks), he told me that he has been having low self -esteem and that comment kinda shook that sleeping esteem that was left in him, I felt bad, i mean it was just an impression and a comment that shouldnt be given much thought because that doesnt mean he looks panget or something, he looks good naman, some people i know may find him hot, i know it was bad to compare, i shouldnt have said it and just kept it to myself, but you know me, thats not me at all. I say whatever pops in my mind, i do have a choice on not to blurt it out but then again at that time i opted not to. (some people told me that my bluntness is cute and tolerable, which makes me very unique among the other bloggers here, could be an asset huh? hehehehe!)

I apologized for my bad behavior and i think he forgave me naman, I mean after all he has this HD for me lolz! hahahahaha! nah! i think he's toying around and brushing my ego like all the other bloggers here hehehe! After the starbucks thingy, we had dinner at Mcdo and spent the rest of the night in a motel Joke! hahahhaha! kala niyo, magpapakama ako ng ganun ganun lang, Of course not!, i think i still need to see his feet muna lolz!

Thank you for the good times ah, I enjoyed our conversation, Sana maulit hehehe!

And im sorry if I always make you feel bad, I was hoping this post will prove otherwise but it didnt!

Brutalan sa Inuman

When: Last Sunday Night
Where: Superman's place
Why: Fiesta/Bday celebration of my Superman

So there I was smoking my dj mix strawberry cigarette, looking fabulous in my old navy brown hooded sweatshirt (i felt like im nicole scherzinger of pcd when im wearing it) partnered with my fave pair of ust pe shorts and my bench sneakers, (which i bought for only 500 bucks in a bench sale in glorietta) i dont wanna look na pinaghandaan ko ang pagpunta dun, so i opted wearing my regular pambahay clothes pero malayo pa lang ako, kilala na ko ng mga geeky highschool friends of his, hindi pa rin tlaga nawawala ang misunderstood intimidating aura ko sa mga chaka friends niya, yes we all know, back in highschool that i never talked to these commoners, a royalty doesnt talk to these peppermint friends of his kaya, pls dont get me wrong!, im not matapobre naman and im not mad at them, in fact i like some of them because they're smarter than the average joe and their not mayabang but then again, you cant help but call them geeks! lets just say im tactless and frank etc.

So ayun since i love my superman and i embraced everything about him, i dont have any other choice but to hang out in the same table with his geeky friends, and when i mean geeky as in ang common topic na pinaguusapan nila is only revolving with dota, kamusta naman un? im not a dota fan, well kung tutuusin hindi na rin nakakapagtaka kasi back in highschool, i remember they used to be called the counterstrike guys, and nung nagcollege kami, nagevolve sila sa ragnarok guys or whatever, buti na lang superman is moderately playing these pc games na, dahil kung ganun pa rin siya now, my god, ill break his neck talaga.

Buti na lang to keep out of boredom andun ung aking good friend na si Ursula (ex volleyball varsity who looks like ursula in the little mermaid, and im being polite ah) and Alyssa, who is a very flexible person, ms. congeniality nung highschool (as in pati ung mag construction workers na gumagawa nung new bldg ng school eh kilala siya sa sobrang ingay at friendly niya), well at least hindi ako maoop di ba? meron akong mga friends that belong in my circle, the varsity, popular, dont fret or we'll bite society.

Alyssa: Hi, musta ka na? I didnt know that you and Superman are close? pahingi naman yosi
Me: Ah now lang, naging classmates din kami nung highschool and elem (we are being discreet na were dating now teka di ba doctor ka na, bat nanghihingi ka ng yosi)
Alyssa: Ahhhh!, kasi ur not the type who hangs out with these kind of people eh, nakakagulat lang that i saw you here
Me: sobra ka naman! im friendly naman kaya
Alyssa: Did you heard about what happened to Aga (not real name)?
Me: Who the hell is Aga? (hindi daw suplado oh, i looked at ursula)
Ursula: Si Aga!, ano ka ba, ung may jolina magdangal and john pratts notebooks nung highschool tayo (so jologs him di ba?)
Me: ahhhhhh, ung maraming an-an and acne?, ung mahilig manghiram ng archie comics sakin na hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin niya binabalik, that Aga? Oh what happened ba to him?

Ursula: Multik patayin ng callboy
Me: OMG! true ba yan?
Alyssa: Darating siya tonight, ull see the peklats here sa neck, he' s so wawa

mga tao nga naman, tsismisan again, at nakisawsaw naman ako sa mga etchos nila

Me: Panong multik mamatay?
Alyssa: sinaksak siya ng kutsilyo, at sa haus nila mismo nangyari, si father ang nakakitang nasaksak siya, tumakbo daw ung guy ng nakabrief lang, naiwan daw damit at cellphone sa kwarto pa niya, nakasakay daw kagad ng taxi. (oh di ba? updated siya, parang andun siya nung nangyari di ba?)
me: Why would he make saksak naman?
Ursula: at yan naman ang isang malaking multiple choice

a: hindi sila nagkasundo sa presyo
b: nabahuan sa hininga ni bakla
c: wala lang trip lang nung guy pumatay ng bakla

me: or d: may pinapagawa si Aga na hindi gustong gawin ni guy? OMG! baka serial killer pa un, baka pumapatay tlaga un ng bading, or baka may aids yun, where did the kutsilyo came from?
Alyssa: kutsilyo nila aga, ginamit!
Me: so sinong nagdala sa kanya sa hospi? si father?
Ursula: plangak! pasok sa banga ka dyan day!
me: omg! eh di nalaman ni father na badingerzie ung anak niya
ursula: malamang, sa tingin mo papano kaya iexplain ni bakla kung bat siya nasaksak, ano un, lumipad ung kutsilyo sa leeg niya.
Me: eh kasi naman dapat hindi nagdadala ng lalake sa bahay! delikado kaya un!
ursula: korek, eh alam mo naman si bakla, porket walang bf eh, nagbabayad ng guy
Me: look whos talking, ikaw nga eh namimili ng xmas gifts sa toy kingdom para sa mga inaanak ng boyfriend mong may asawa tapos ung mga inaanak mo divisoria lang.
Alyssa: true ba yan?
Ursula: hoy hindi naman, dun din ako namili para sa inaanak ko
Me: Eh how about the cellphone na binigay mo sa kanya?
Ursula: babayarin naman daw niya pag nagkatrabaho siya!
Me: yah ryt! (rolling eyes) kelan pa un, eh estudiante pa lang siya ngayon?

ursula: ikaw naman, im understanding naman kasi unlike you
me: understanding my ass!, sinugod sugod ka nga nung asawa di ba sa bahay nyo?
Alyssa: OMG! ano ginawa?
Ursula: ayun! sinabihan ako na tantanan ko na daw ung asawa niya, di pa naman kaya sila kasal
me: pero may anak na kaya sila
Ursula: atsaka pasalamat nga sila may pinang noche buena sila nung last xmas, sakin kaya galing un,
me: ur hopeless!
ursula: at least hindi ako choosy tulad mo nho!

sasabat pa sana ako pero tinapik ako ni superman sa ilalim ng lamesa, i just shut up, bday niya pagbigyan cge! maya maya here comes Aga with his current bf

Aga: huy cj, musta? tagal natin di nagkita ah! i lost ur number ano number mo?
Me: oo nga ang tagal na natin di nagkita, ang daming nagbago and i must say, in fairness wala ka ng an-an, pero mukha kang cabinet sa taba, archie comics ko?
Superman: Brutal ka tlaga!

Me: (pabulong kay alyssa) Sinetch itetchie agbayani rubbing elbows to the max sa belo skinny jeans?
Alyssa: boyfriend daw? (imagine her hands drawing quote symbols in the air)
Ursula: Boyfriend???!!!!!!!!!! (Sharpay accent) ang taray naman, ako nga walang boyfriend eh! tapos siya meron
Me: oh tigilan ang insecurities, walang gamot dyan!
Ursula: Hoy aga! sino siya? boyfriend mo?
Aga: OO! (proud si bakla)
Ursula: MAGKANO?

me to superman: sino kayang brutal?

later that night, pinaglaruan namin silang magsyota, see the videos na lang, naawa ako dun sa guy kasi wala siya magawa but he's a sport naman and game sa mga tao, hahahaha! im so bad! hay!

sorry for the poor video quality. additional kalokohan tidbits courtesy of me

1. ung ininom nila, dinagdagan ko ng special spice aka cigarette ash, bkt? trip kong gumawa ng sariling concoction eh, sarap kaya!
2. ung chaser na ininom ni aga, (striped guy) hindi un iced tea, pinalitan ko ng purong grand matador un, did u saw his facial reaction? he sticked out his tongue and we all laughed di ba? haha!

Sorry for being your Kryptonite

Dear Superman,

Im sorry for taking you for granted, i dont know what to say when we met up last night and u asked if the one night stand was true, nakalimutan ko nagbabasa ka pala ng blog ko, im sorry i made you cry and i actually felt guilt running in my system, there you are, begging for my focused attention and love while me on the other hand still kept on looking for other prospective lays, im sorry for being your kryptonite and making you stupid in front of other people.

Im sorry for screaming at you in public and you bowed like a scared puppy, and kahit na nagawa ko un, you still told me that you loved me and willing to be my bottom, hindi ko naman hinihingi un eh, hindi naman kita pinipilit na magpakabottom para lang sakin, i dont want you to change because of me, im sorry for taking you for granted, wala naman ung nangyari samin eh, sana its not going to be a big deal for you na, its just sex naman wala namang feelings na involve dun, hindi naman ako nakipagrelasyon sa kanya, ang kapal ng mukha ko tlaga, ako na nga may kasalanan ako pa tong malakas ang loob manigaw, sorry nagawa ko sayo to, sorry hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko.

Im not good in expressing my feelings for you, im not what you think i am, hindi ako mabait, hindi ako santo, hindi ako faithful, pokpok ako and im sorry, hindi ko nga alam kung magbabago pa ko eh, you told me na tutulungan mo ko magbago pero pano, sabi mo maglive in tayo pero does it have to be like that?, kailangan ba umabot dun para lang magbago ako, di ba dapat manggaling mismo sakin ung will na magbago?, pero as of now i dont know, i think im hopeless and i think ur wasting ur time with me, sabi nila tanga daw ako pag pinakawalan kita pero ayoko naman masaktan ka because of me, hindi ko ata kayang pantayan yang love na binibigay mo sakin, ni hindi nga ako sure na love ba tlaga yan eh, how can u tell its serious? is it because naghintay ka ng matagal for me? im really sorry na nagdududa ako sayo and ur feelings pero hindi kasi ako sure kung tama ba tong nararamdaman ko for you, i think your just too good to be true and it scares me na one day, mauntog ka na at mabasag na yang helmet mo, hindi ko alam kung nagawa ko lang ba makipagsex sa iba para itesting ka pero right now parang ganun na nga ang naiisip ko, hindi kasi tayo nag-aaway, masyado kang patient, masyado kang tahimik, masyadong understanding, masyadong mabait.

Samantalang ako, im opposite of what u r, i'm a slut and Im a bastard and im sorry...............

Sincerely yours,

Turismoboi

PS

Kelan ka nga magpapabottom? JOKE!